A Letter for Myself

It's easier to make a new one than fixing the old one, they said. 

Because the old one already have a pattern that another people has made before, and it's a little bit complicate to follow the pattern to finish it.

Yes, it is really easier to make a new one, because you really create it from the beginning, that you know every single part of it, untill you finish it with your own way.

But.... they didn't say it's impossible to continue the old one. 

It's not easy, but there's always possibility.

I proved that twice, in fact, it really is, not easy. 

I made much mistake in doing that. 

Even when I finish, the result is not as perfect as I and everyone expected.

But I finished it, until it really finish.

I finished it with my own way. 

I never ask to fix it at the first time, the responsibilities was just given to me in the middle of the pattern.

Then I took my courage to bear that responsibilities. To finish what I didn't start.

Honestly I'm not satisfied with the result. I admit that, I didn't deserve an appreciation from other people.

But I respect myself, I regard my self, I care to myself, and I convinced my self to receive a little thank you from myself, to myself, for having that courage at the first place, and still stand for it until it finish. 

So, thank you, Shelly, for did the best you can. Make this as the lesson for your future. Keep that braveness, always remember, have courage and be kind :)

(Note: 

• The first occasion is when I become the first treasurer, from the second treasurer. Because the 'old' first treasurer was signed out from the organization
• And the second occasion is when I, from the regular member, was asked to be the coordinator of artistic team that already created and already planned by other person. But because there's a thing, make that person became a chairman of the committee. So she asked me to replace her position.
• I finished those jobs, with a little bit messy result. It was really far from perfect.
• But like i said, I have to appreciate myself, so I write this letter for myself
• And I just want to remind all of you, you need an appreciation of everything you did. At least you have a pure will to do it right, even if the result is far from your expectation)

And last but not least, I have a song for all of us:

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else, hey

You made me insecure,

Told me I wasn't good enough.

But who are you to judge

When you're a diamond in the rough?

I'm sure you got some things

You'd like to change about yourself.

But when it comes to me

I wouldn't want to be anybody else.

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I'm no beauty queen

I'm just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You've got every right

To a beautiful life

C'mon

Who says, who says you're not perfect?

Who says you're not worth it?

Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?

Trust me, that's the price of beauty

Who says you're not pretty?

Who says you're not beautiful?

Who says?

It's such a funny thing

How nothing's funny when it's you

You tell 'em what you mean

But they keep whiting out the truth

It's like a work of art

That never gets to see the light

Keep you beneath the stars

Won't let you touch the sky

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

I'm no beauty queen

I'm just beautiful me

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na na na na na na

You've got every right

To a beautiful life

C'mon

Who says, who says you're not perfect?

Who says you're not worth it?

Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?

Trust me, that's the price of beauty

Who says you're not pretty?

Who says you're not beautiful?

Who says?

Who says you're not star potential?

Who says you're not presidential?

Who says you can't be in movies?

Listen to me, listen to me

Who says you don't pass the test?

Who says you can't be the best?

Who said, who said?

Would you tell me who said that?

Yeah, who said?

Who says, who says you're not perfect? (yeah)

Who says you're not worth it? (yeah yeah)

Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'? (oh)

Trust me, that's the price of beauty (hey yeah, beauty)

Who says you're not pretty? (who said?)

Who says you're not beautiful? (I'm just beautiful me)

Who says?

Who says you're not perfect?

Who says you're not worth it?

Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?

Trust me (yeah), that's the price of beauty

Who says you're not pretty?

Who says you're not beautiful? (who says you're not beautiful?)

Who says?

-Who Says, Selena Gomez

Judges

Judges biasanya diminta dan dibayar untuk menilai atau mengomentari peserta. Terus ngapain repot-repot judging kalo ga di minta. 

Okay jadi gini, jaman sekarang (dari dulu sih sebenernya) banyak bgt yg suka ngomentarin orang lain (mungkin gue juga). Tapi postingan ini buat self-reminder aja. 

Ngomentarin ada tingkatannya, ada yg cuma iseng, karena emang dia pantes dikomentarin, sampe ada yg komentar karena sirik tanda tak mampu. Yang mau di ingetin disini yg terakhir sih. Please sebelum komentar yg keterlaluan, make sure dulu kita kenal sama org itu dan kita tau bener dia kayak gimana. Sebenernya kalo kita kenal sama org itu ya tegor aja langsung sih saat ada yg ga beres, bukan ngomentarin dia di belakang.

And I'm pretty sure, yang suka komentar dibelakang pasti ga kenal sama orang itu makanya bisa tega dan sampe ati ngomongin yang enggak-enggak, padahal itu sebatas kemampuan berpikir kita doang tanpa tau yang sebenarnya.

Coba sekarang bayangin kalau kita yang ada di posisi itu, seandainya kita merasa ga melakukan suatu hal tapi tiba-tiba denger desas desus yang ga bener tentang diri kita. Have you ever imagine that? Kalo ga bisa memposisikan diri kayak gitu berarti terbukti kemampuan mentalnya emang kurang heeeeee 😁😁😁

Kalau bisa ngebayangin, seharusnya para judges-judges ini berpikir dan mencari tahu dulu sebelum menebarkan komentarnya. Tapi mencari tahunya jangan dengan cara nanya ke orang lain dengan ekspresi muka-muka saytonirojim ngajak gosip hehehe. Kalo bisa mencari tahunya dengan langsung kenali orang yang bersangkutan, deketin, dan cari tahu dia orang yang seperti apa. Kalau ternyata yang kita pikir sebelumnya itu salah, we really should throw all our dirty mind.

It's like words "know your enemy", "make your enemy as your best friend", menurut gue sih makna dari kata-kata itu bukan mendekati musuh buat nusuk dari belakang. Bukan. Tapi dengan kita ngedeketin dia, kita lebih paham bagaimana dia, dan kita bisa mengerti sebab dari perilakunya yang kita pikir aneh sebelumnya. Hmmmm dengan kata lain bisa dibilang empati sih. Tapi bukan empati banget, duh apa ya istilahnya yang tepat haha.. Pokoknya gitu, kalau kita bisa paham sama dia, rasa-rasa curiga pun hilang dan kita malah membantu dan membela dia.

Itu diatas kalo kasusnya orang yang kita omongin ternyata ga bersalah ya. Lain lagi kalo ternyata yang kita pikirkan itu memang benar adanya, kita udah deketin, dan ternyata kita tau dia memang seperti itu dan ga ada yang bisa dipahami dari dia. So leave them then.... You don't have to make your self in complicated place with complicated person. Sepertinya ga susah meninggalkan orang yang memang pantas ditinggalkan, so yeah my only advice is to leave them. Ga usah ikut campur urusan orang kalau memang dia ga minta untuk dicampuri urusannya. 

Setelah itu hidup seperti biasa aja ga usah mikirin apalagi nyebarin rumor-rumor meskipun memang bukan kebohongan, tapi tetap aja ghibah dosa. Dan ga bermanfaat juga sih nyebarin aib orang, emang kita mau aibnya disebar?

Balik lagi ke sirik tanda tak mampu. Apa kita rela buang-buang waktu buat mengamati seseorang, buat nyari-nyari kesalahan dia. Apa itu bisa bikin diri kita lebih baik? NO. 'Terlihat' lebih baik pun tidak. Yang ada kita terlihat pathetic dan sirik abis. Malu dong gaessss

Udah komentarin dia, tapi masi aja stalking sosmednya. Tujuannya buat nyari kesalahannya lagi. Guilty pleasure? Maybe. Buang2 waktu? Banget. Bermanfaat buat kehidupan kita kedepan? Sangat enggak.

Setelah nyari kesalahan dia, kita berusaha meyakinkan diri sendiri dan orang lain bahwa kita lebih baik dari dia. Sampe sini, oke kalo mau lebih baik. Tapi....... Patokan kita untuk jadi lebih baik adalah orang yang kita jatuhkan? Helloooo you just make your standard low. Mau diketawain orang? Masa membandingkan diri sendiri sama orang yang kita jelek-jelekin. Itu yang namanya sirik tanda tak mampu. Kasian kalo hidup kita dipake cuma buat mikirin orang lain yang bahkan ga mikirin kita :(

Live your live to the fullest, make you standard high, avoid other people's problem. 

Oke sekian terima kasih. Thank you for wasting your time to read this post 😁🙏🏻